Affirmation

One day

I will no longer

clear the cobwebs

heal the hurts

negotiate with nerves

answer to my anxiety

One day

I will

master myself.

Insomnia 

fighting to find sleep 

Tossing and turning repeat

Counting the fake sheep

Restless

Colors like changing
Ebb and flow of emotions
Searching for stillness

Procedure

Anxiety room
Sterile instruments
snip snip
Awaiting results

Rupture

Sad stories

she writes

repeats

 

Tragic histories

reek

they repeat

 

People do

wrong then

sweep

 

 

Dysfunction dust

leaves a

strong musk

 

 

Stories weave

she writes

repeats

 

 

Emerging bruises

children run to

local park

 

 

Scared blinded

by the

dark

 

Sad stories

she heard

Mother told

 

Broken arm

pigeon lost

in streets

 

 

Touched in

places not

seen or heard

 

 

Speaking now

she doesn’t

just write

 

Breaking the habit

of keeping

stories sealed tight.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fear

Chained by arm and leg

butterflies attack stomach

hands dripping like rain

 

Hush

Facing the silence

tattooed hurt memory

Unspoken story

Awake

Nightmares chasing me
Paralyzed no voice to scream
Reality blur

Resilience

Cleaning out

Memories Like

shattered glass

Echoes of the past

 

 

 

Webs  of

trauma

deceit

Control

Dysfunction,

The common thread

 

 

 

Hold me captive

There’s no release

Clenched claws on

my writing abilities

 

 

 

 

Trail of tears, Searching

for comfort From whoever

abandonment

I fear

 

 

 

Out of the static noise

keep on pushing

My will speaks loud and

Clear.

 

 

 

 

Write it down

Set it free

no longer

A part of me